Letting Go

This weekend I began a three part workshop with Shri Yoga studio.  I was asked so many times by both family and friends, "So what did you do?"  "What did you learn?"  I can honestly say I can't answer that question.  All that I did over the 20 hours is locked inside my brain and my heart.  I am taking in all that I did and I am processing the weekend into to so many little pieces the best way I can.  
I met so many wonderful women, who opened themselves up to so much.  We have all become friends in such a short time.  They are  brilliant, beautiful and filled with passion.   
I personally got the most out the activity talking about Karma Yoga.  We all think Karma is about what you do comes back.  But it is not. It is so much more.  It is a deliberate act with out attachment to the outcome.  My struggle is just that, how can you do anything without attachment.  I am fully attached to everything I do, right, wrong or indifferent.  I constantly say, I do all that I do because I love it,  teaching, coaching, yoga, nutrition and I am fully attached to all the results.  My sense of blame for the failure of others is overwhelming.  I say to all of my students and clients that it is OK to fail, it is a part of learning.  Yet, I do not hold myself to the same standard.  I have no tolerance for failure within myself.  Just saying that is so amazing.  My intention is to allow myself to feel and fail and not hold onto the failure of others.   Their failures are their journey and mine are my journey and that is OK.  

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